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Grief

Five Months

March 2021

Today marks the 5th month since my son Dale died.  I often think of  the words, “loss of my son”, but I don’t like to say that as I  didn’t lose my son, he died.  It still seems surreal, like at any moment my phone is going to ring and I am going to hear Dale say, Hey Momma.  Oh, do I miss him. The tears still fall, the pain is still very real.  My heart still hurts and I feel that it always will hurt.  I will grow older but without Dale in my life. He will forever be 29.  29 years young.  Even now it huts too much to write about this loss.  Even thought I don’t like it…yes, it is a loss in my life, while I didn’t lose him, there is a loss in my life without him in it.  Today was a hard day.